Friday, June 19, 2009

God is Good

We are starting to come out of the haze and are enjoying every second together as a family. Baby Ty had a big day, today, as he was reunited with sweet Rebekah. We got all dressed up for the occasion!

Ty will always know how incredibly selfless his first mother was and that the pain she endured was for his gain...
Our sweet bloggy friend, Kriss sent this adorable horse to Rebekah. Kriss is the largest piece of our puzzle as she referred Rebekah to my blog. Rebekah wanted Ty to have it so that he could remember all the amazing people involved in his story. It will be cherished always.


He makes my heart do flip-flops.



Life as a mom...
I'm pretty weepy. His little face has yet to escape the falling of my wet tears. I can't help it. I've never known such contentment. In a few minutes he'll officially be 3 days old. The fruit of your prayers are evident. He's such a good baby. Chugs the bottle when it's feeding time, burps on cue, falls asleep immediately, doesn't spit up, doesn't cry...loves to cuddle. We've switched formula, pacifiers, and bottles on him - complaints were never heard.

Because he's such a fast eater, we're able to change him, feed him, and burp him in 25 minutes, before heading back to bed. Sleep has hardly been an issue. Ben and I switch on and off, equalling big chunks of sleep for both of us!

I love every minute I have with him. Every diaper. Every feeding. It's a privilege to be called his protector.

Last night, I just couldn't give him up and spent hours sleeping with him in my arms or pressed up against my chest [no lectures]. It will never get old. He has these dark pools for eyes that pierce my heart and allow time to stand still. I incessantly kiss every area of exposed skin and tell him how my heart longed for his existence.

We've already been out for a walk, a pediatrician visit, grocery shopping, and dinner last night. The first time I heard the words, "How old is your son?" my heart soared to the highest height.

Everything is different, yet everything remains the same. It's as if he always was.

58 comments:

  1. I came across your blog back in January and have followed you ever since. I've checked on you almost daily but have never posted. Now, seeing those pictures of that beautiful boy and reading your heartfelt words I just wanted to tell you how happy I am for you and Ben. I have actually cried tears of happiness for you and sadness for Rebekah. You guys have a great life ahead with that scrumptious baby boy. Bring on Father's Day...God is so good!!!

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  2. absolutely beautiful...I still can't read a post without crying. Word cannot explain the joy we feel for you guys. you are beautiful.

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  3. I couldn't be happier for you! It's wonderful to hear what a good-natured baby Ty is, and how much you're enjoying everything (including diapers) with him. :-) The time that Rebekah is able to spend with you two and with Ty is so special. You all are creating beautiful memories for each other that will last a lifetime.

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  4. Rebekah, I've been following your blog and I'm just so happy for all of you!

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  5. Amazing! I'm so happy for you and glad things are going well :). I've been reading/ commenting for awhile now but wanted to say reading your posts hits me in a different way. See, I am an adoptee and recently found my birthfamily.. I had a closed and sealed adoption. I have a relationship with my bfather but not really my bmother/half siblings. My mother ( adoptive, but to me my MOTHER) passed away in 05 from cancer..and hearing your story makes me think of how my mom must have felt... she was always telling me I was her baby (even at 20) calling to tell me a storm was on its way..and called everyday. Then as a young teenager, etc I coudln't understand why she couldn't "let me go" and allow me to grown up. But now, after having a child of my own, and reading your story I understand why. THank you. Much love and prayers for you all! Lindsey
    http://arewardfromhim.blogspot.com

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  6. gosh...this is just so great....amazing...thankyou for letting us in on this incredible journey...

    m:)

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  7. I CAN REMEMBER THOSE FIRST FEW DAYS ALL OVER AGAIN! I AM RIGHT THERE WITH YOU! I CAN FEEL ALL YOUR EMOTIONS! GOD BLESS!

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  8. Beautiful as always Rebekah!
    Ty is so blessed to call you Mommy!

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  9. absolutely wonderful.....We are so happy for you guys. Baby Ty is so cute and sweet!! God is so Awesome!!! Enjoy!!!

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  10. How beautiful! What a blessed baby he is. :)
    I love reading your updates! Can't wait until you take him home and start your life in Michigan. :)

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  11. Wow Rebekah, your posts these past few days have been so beautiful. The love you have for both Ty and Rebekah is coming through so much. I am so glad that you guys are adjusting well.

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  12. I completely agree with Meeghan. Just found your blog a few days ago from Kriss'. Your story is such a miracle and your son is beautiful. So very happy for you guys!!
    Midwest Mom from TLOL web site

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  13. I have been following your blog for almost a year now. I have rarley commented. I have been praying for you, Ben, Rebekah, and Ty. I have cried the same tears of joy and sorrow. Today I look at my children who are 12,12, & 10. You will still look at them with the same amazement and joy watching him grow and explore this world. Enjoy every moment you have with him they grow up way too fast. I am so happy for you, Ben, & Ty. God has blessed you with a beautiful family. I pray that women in Birth Mom Rebekah position has the love and encouragment to bless another family the way she blessed your family with Ty.
    Debbi in Connecticut

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  14. It has been so exciting to see how awesome God has been during your journey. You have a beautiful new baby, a wonderful new extended family, and such an AWESOME Father who has giving you such a beautiful blessing. Thank you for sharing your struggles and victories here on this blog!

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  15. I am with the others, I cant find a way to read these posts without tears pouring from my eyes. You are ALL such amazing people. People with hearts that others should be jealous of, with spirits others should admire, and souls that are written about only in books. What a pleasure it is to know that people with hearts of gold really do exist in this world.

    Rebekah, you holding that baby is exactly where you belong. The pictures are so obvious that you were born to be a mother. What a beautiful thing.

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  16. :) Every post, Im close to tears because of how happy I am that you finally have baby boy in your arms! Keep em coming! :)

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  17. Thanks for the pics. They are beautiful.

    Baby Ty will grow up hearing an amazing story of how much his parents and his birthmom adore and love him to pieces.

    CeCe in MS

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  18. I LOVED the picture of Mama and Son. It is really special! Ty is really adorable!

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  19. What a blessing to see you all together as a family! What joy and thanksgiving, and what a wonderful mother you are! What a blessed baby he is to have you as his mama! And you just hold that sweet baby boy as MUCH as you want, they grow up too fast and soon he'll be too big to sleep that way! I held my son as much as I wanted and never regretted it (and will do the same with my next baby)- those are sweet, precious memories you're making :) Congratulations again, and God bless you all! Thank you so much for sharing him with all of us- he is just too wonderful for words! :)

    ~Hannah in CA

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  20. This is such an absolutely deep and touching post. I am so very happy for you with your new family. Enjoy every bit of it. You have a very beautiful baby.

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  21. i can't tell you how good it is to FINALLY see YOUR baby in your arms. you're a mother... all the years of fruitless attempts at motherhood are OVER.

    and if God had answered your prayers then, you probably wouldn't have Ty now.

    praying for all of you as you adjust to life as a family...

    - michelle

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  22. Rebekah - I found your blog a few months ago and instantly fell in love with your story. I felt this weird connection to you, you seemed so familiar...but thinking you must have just been a friend of a friend of a friend, I just chalked it up to the incredible emotion of your heart you so beautifully let people in on....
    This week, you and your family have been on my mind constantly. I've been blog stalking you, praying for you....and then started to tell my husband your amazing story (where do you begin with that, really)..
    Turns out, we are connected! You actually work with my husband @ RC (Jeremy King). I tracked it down and realized I found your blog through Kara Miller and have been dumbfounded ever since! Totally explains why I recognize you, seeing pictures of you on friend's facebook pages, etc.
    Anyway...enough rambling, I had to share that crazy coincidence and tell you that I never knew I could feel so much joy for a family I've never really known...
    Yours is a beautiful journey that I feel so honored to been able to watch unfold. My heart swells to see an answered prayer so full of hope and life. God IS good, and pray that He continues to bless you and your incredible new family!

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  23. I can not get through your posts without crying with you! What a wonderful story .. what a beautiful baby!

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  24. I'm so happy for you. You both look so content. And Ty is truly beautiful.

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  25. oh mama!!!

    just love...

    awe...

    gratitude...

    and sleeping with you...i cannot think of anything more yummy than holding them close to your heart! xx

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  26. He is so precious! Love the update...I'm feeling a little bit weepy here. So, so happy for you guys.

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  27. I love this post, because it echoes EVERYTHING I feel and have felt about Charlie from the very first moment. You are a beautiful new mommy, and I can't wait to talk to you more once your world settles back down a bit.

    HUGS,

    Melba

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  28. love the new header...you will have to school me on making one for my blog :)

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  29. ahhh.....just beautiful rebekah....i remember our first week being so busy with our out of state family, attorney appts, pediatrician appts., and we also met with milo's bmom again also.......there are no words to describe your first week of life with your baby you have waited so long for.....
    i'm so glad to hear you are getting some sleep ~ that's important especially since you will be driving back. :) and don't ever feel bad about holding him, kissing him and loving on him every moment of every day ~ you deserve it and so does he. :)
    prayers going out for all to continue wonderfully......
    can't wait to hear more. :)

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  30. Ah Rebekah I love the picture of you kissing Ty's head. What a beautiful picture. You look so peaceful.

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  31. I have been following your blog for a while now. A long while. I can't explain how happy I am for you and Ben. I understand the loss Rebekah feels to a point.

    Another thing I would like to add that holding and co-sleeping with your baby is fine. I co-slept with all my children and the bonding is just wonderful.

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  32. Wow! Congratulations. He's beautiful, and the two of you look like very proud parents. It's wonderful to see you become a mom.

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  33. BEAUTIFUL!!! I started crying when I saw the picture of you holding your precious son...you are such a gorgeous mom. And I love that he is wearing his guitar outfit! We totally have to take pictures of both of them in them when you come back through! Love you forever...

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  34. Isn't it hard to imagine what life was like before him? Like how you went about life before you had someone depending on you? It's amazing how fast they grip your heartstrings with their teeny tiny fingers. And life is never the same.

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  35. It is absolutely 100% OK to hold that baby 24/7 if that is what you want to do!! You have waited a long time for it and he can never get too much of it!!! He is learning you as his mom now, in a different way than he learned his first one those 9 months.
    I am so rejoiced that he is beginning to feel like your son to you now!
    I am just so happy for you all! I am remembering the price to the other Rebekah as well. All of you have a beautiful story to share!

    Glad things are going so smoothly! Jealous that he doesn't spit up! ugh! My son had reflux so bad! Our great-nephew that we are fostering now has it. Today has been a bad spit up day! ;o) Perhaps your child will never have to deal with that!!

    Blessings to you all! Keep holding and squeezing that baby!! As much as you want!!!

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  36. Congrats. Pretty sure he is the cutest thing ever. And I L-O-V-E his room. Beautiful!

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  37. Beautiful!! Your words, your story, your brand new son... all beautiful!

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  38. It's okay to hold him against your chest (even bare-chested is great because the skin-to-skin contact is an incredible bonding experience)! Just wanted to say that in case someone said something different.

    He's so precious- thank you for sharing so many pictures with us!

    We are SO happy for your little family!

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  39. I just wanted to tell you I LOVE the new header on your page! What a tribute to all of you. What an amazing gift from God adoption is.

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  40. Just precious Rebekah...so happy for you. I feel the other Rebekah's pain as well, I only hope to have a great relationship with our future birthmom like you do with her. It must give her comfort to know you are with him. You look like a natural mommy!

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  41. Wow I've been away since Tuesday and missed the big moment! Congratulations to you. What a moving, heartbreaking and inspiring story.

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  42. Rebekah,
    I love all of the photos from start to finish. That's wonderful that you spent the day with Rebekah. How nice that she gave the little horse to Ty, too. It's great that it's a gift from the connection (Kriss) between you and Rebekah.

    Just an idea...I've seen other blogs where they take pictures of the baby with a stuffed animal that was a gift from the birthmother each month. Then the adoptive parents send the pics to the birthmom so she can see how much he/she is growing each month. I think it's such a cool idea.

    It's so nice to read how happy and content you are. It's great that Ty is doing so well. I can hear the happiness in your words.

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  43. I found your blog through Karen's and I'd just like to say that my heart is soaring for you at the birth of your son! Spend as much time cuddling with him as you want! My daughter's first 3 months of life were spent sleeping on my chest. A lot of skin on skin where he can hear your heartbeat will intensify your bond! Having him sleep on your chest will decrease the risk of SIDS, comfort him instantly, help him sleep better, and make you fall head over heels in love all over again with every contented sigh he makes.

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  44. just beautiful....and thinking of ben tomorrow as he celebrates his first Father's Day....what an amazing gift........we are celebrating matt's first too....know how full your hearts are....
    hugs,
    kimberly

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  45. Don't ever let anyone tell you not to hold your baby too much because there is no such thing! I was worried about "spoiling" our son by holding him too much or picking him up the moment he made a peep, but with our daughter I am not worried at all. I slept with her on my chest for ALL her naps for the first 6 months, and all of a sudden she changed, started squirming while I was holding her and I knew she was tired, so I laid her down and she fell asleep on her own. The day when they don't want to be cuddled so much comes soon enough, and right now he needs to know you love him and will take care of him through touching. It warms my heart every time I see a picture of you with him, and I LOVED seeing Rebekah with him as well. What a wonderful set of mommies he has!

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  46. Well today is fathers day and I just wanted to wish Ben a happy fathers day!
    Cindie

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  47. No lectures from me! I believe in co-sleeping with babies, and have done it with all 4. Ever read about Attachment Parenting? :)

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  48. No more heart cries. Have you thought of changing the title to your blog? Wishing you sweet moments with your son.

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  49. I've been following your blog and I LOVE IT!! He is sooooo precious!!! I'm jealous of your sleep schedule.

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  50. Oh, Rebekah! I cannot tell you how happy I am for you and Ben and Ty! I read several entries of your blog, looked and all the pictures, and I too, am sitting here with tears in my eyes! God is so good! Can't wait to see you back here in Michigan.
    Love,
    Lynne Stewart

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  51. It is so funny - I have read your blog for a long time, and have followed Rebekah for even longer (on TLOL since before her youngest was born!) AND, I know Kriss! What a beautiful story you have, and I am so happy for you and Ben. Enjoy your son and have a wonderful life! :)

    Courtney (signing on from my daughter's account!)

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  52. Happy First Father's Day Ben! You are already a wonderful daddy!

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  53. Just wanted to say a very special Happy Father's day to you guys!!! I know its one you will never forget!! Much love to all,
    Midwest Mom, Chicago

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  54. Rebekah, you don't know me, but I found your blog on Grace Comes By Hearing. We have an almost 11 month old little boy that came home last September, after 6 weeks in foster care. I appreciate reading your heart, and hearing your experiences. Being a mom is incomparable, after waiting so long. Blessings to you and Ben, and your SON, Ty!

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  55. "how old is your son...my heart soared to the highest heights" When reading that, I felt my heart raise up with you and a smile grow on my face! We are in the home study process of domestic adoption, and I'm just getting involved in this blog world...and I happened upon your gorgeous family's story as Ty was born. Thank you so much for sharing your emotions.

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  56. This mommy stuff looks good on you, girl!! will you be my mommy next? hehe

    You look proud as a peacock, and Rebekah 2 looks AMAZING. So pretty.
    Congrats..and I want to give Rebekah a big cyber hug from all of us here in cyber space. She has given you guys the bestest gift ever! xoxoxo

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