Day 301

This has seriously been a bad week. I know you've had weeks like it...everyone has....when nothing can seem to go right? Apparently, we bleed money now...so we've got that going for us! It's as if we've been playing Jeopardy...the real life version..."Yah, Alex...I'll take a basement flood for $1,ooo please." ding ding, you won, choose again. "Okay, how about a pay cut for $3,000." ding ding, you're really good at this! [And I thought I was terrible at Jeopardy...] "Wow, this one might be a long shot...how about a Jeep lease gone terribly wrong for $1,500." ding ding.... you get the picture.

Thankfully, Ben and I are not major stressers. I mean, really, what can you do? So, we wiped out our entire maternity leave savings account in 3 days...there are worse things that can happen, right? Do you know what stopped us from completely giving up and running to Mexico (besides the fact that we don't speak a lick of Spanish and my legs are currently the pastiest of whites)? Baby boy.

My heart is so full of joy, nothing can cloud the sunshine (not even losing thousands of dollars, unexpectedly!) Someone at church gave us a beautiful gift and framed Babyheart's ultrasound picture with a heart magnet frame so that he could hang on the fridge. Pouring my morning OJ takes three times the amount of time because I just can't stop staring. I have memorized every feature; every curve. I think about him every second of every day. I think about holding him for the first time and smothering his cheeks with kisses...I imagine us walking hand in hand and him proudly yelling, "Mommy" from the highest slide on the playground. I picture him with Ben everywhere....sitting on the couch, running in the yard, fishing with his uncles. There isn't a minute that goes by that I don't think about that boy.

Words fail to describe the love and anticipation I feel.

All that to say, in the midst of a trying week, our mama and daddy hearts rejoice. We got our pack and play in the mail, today, and we were like two kids in a candy store. Thankfully, we got it all setup without a hitch (we had a trial run at the store last week which had me peeing my pants from the hysterics of our delinquency at figuring out baby gear!) Our purchase came down to price and ease of setup. We found this little gem for $109 on A.mazon and had it up in a snap!

The problem is...we love it so much we can't take it down! Of course, leaving it up in the middle of the living room for the next four months would be ridiculous....or rather...should be ridiculous...but I find myself convinced that the living room wouldn't be the same without it and impulsively felt the need to assemble every unopened baby gaget stored in the closet....is that bad?

We can't help it. We have fallen head over heels in love with our baby boy. So what, if our living room could compete with a fully stocked Babies 'R Us? We may only get one shot at this. We're soaking it all in.

Ahh................................................