Friday, April 20, 2012
First off, I have to say a tremendous thank you to ALL of you for your encouraging words. I was blown away, reading through them, to see that so many of you have walked this path, too. My spirit soars to know that I am not alone. Secondly, I am so thankful that God's mercies are new EVERY morning.
We are having a GREAT day.
This morning, LJ was up abnormally early. He came shuffling into our room and said "Morning, Mama..." I asked him to climb into bed and he snuggled really close. He laid with me for an hour before he was ready to get up. I thanked God for our sweet time.
At nap, I explained to the boy that we are going to have a new routine. I told them that whoever gets up in the morning, first (this is almost always Ty), will take their nap first, while the other gets special time with Mommy and then when that boy gets up, he will have special time with Mommy while the other one is sleeping. The beauty in this arrangement is that I still am able to squeeze out about 45 minutes of alone time.
I tucked Ty in and then LJ and I headed downstairs where the rocking chair waited. I wrapped the blanket around us and told LJ how much I loved him. I told him how many years I prayed that God would make me a mama...and then after Ty was born, how many years I prayed that God would bring us another son. I told him that he was the answer to my prayers and that we were so glad he came to be a part of our family.
LJ never said a word, he just looked at me, quietly. I asked him if he would like me to sing to him and he nodded, yes.
The Spirit of God rushed over me. Same songs, same chair, just a different boy.
LJ fell asleep two songs in, but I held him longer.
I thought of all the nights I rocked in that chair with empty arms. Our nursery was dark for nearly a year before God gifted us with Ty. I would pray and cry and dream in that chair for the babies to come. At the time, I never could have imagined where we would be, today, or the role that chair would play. It was key to bonding with Ty and I believe it will do the same with LJ.
Thank you, Lord, for giving me a good day with our beautiful boys. Give me the strength and heart to love these kids like you do...