Forget buying the overpriced holy water, I've discovered the secret to peace.
Digging into the Word of God.
That should be a no-brainer, but I always seem to let other things get in the way of communing with God - laundry, bills, work, tv, exercising. My time (for just me) is limited to a couple hours each night and because I'm usually so exhausted, my laziness pushes me to the tv and laptop.
We're only 11 days into the new year and I ashamedly admit, I've read my bible more in the last two weeks than in the last two years. I made it a priority this year. And you know what?
I am FULL of hope.
I feel my insides oozing out. I have more kindness for my husband, more patience for my baby boy, more energy for my employer, and more song in my heart for my Savior. It's amazing how that works...
My faith meter is off the charts and I am so drunk with peace I could sell it.
I write all this to say, if you're struggling right now in your faith, ditch your tv routine and spend your time filling your heart with his words. Watch what God will do.
We celebrated victory, tonight, after our last home visit by the foster licensing worker. Our adoption home study is complete and our license should be approved by the end of the month. Both our licensing worker and adoption worker have been such advocates for our family. Tonight the licensing worker said, "We brought in a sibling group, this week, that would be perfect for your family. Unfortunately, it won't work out because of the timing of your license..." she went on to tell us about the children. Even though these sweet kiddos won't be coming home to our family, I was so encouraged to hear her say that she thought of us! Later in the conversation she made reference to our adoption worker and noted that she "checks the registry every week, looking for a placement for you guys."
All the while, I've been, tapping my foot over here, waiting to hear something, ANYTHING, but forcing myself to be patient and trust the process (refusing to bug either worker with pesky emails/calls). The idleness was driving me batty, so I launched into full networking mode (I plan to do a series of blogs on this, soon). I chalked the agency's silence up to busy case workers with overwhelming loads.
So...to hear our licensing worker, tonight, mention twice that her and our adoption worker our thinking of us was such an encouragement to my heart. The Holy Spirit used her earthly words to whisper, "See...I'm moving. Keep trusting..."
That's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm going to keep reading; keep trusting; and keep praying for our kids!