Update

We had such a great break for the holidays.

It feels like we are living the dream. We are raising great boys in a great house. It took us so long to get to this place, now that we're, here, it feels surreal.

Moving to the country was the best decision we ever made.

It's easier to be simple, here.

We didn't go crazy with presents for Christmas. Instead, we enjoyed special time with friends and family. We spent hours playing outside and making memories. It was one of those breaks that felt like a break. We spent most days doing puzzles by the fire, watching movies, cooking in the kitchen, reading books, taking naps - all the things we love most.

LJ loves being home and really needed the break to re-fuel. I spent a lot of time thinking and praying about the challenges we're facing with him and I feel refreshed. God has encouraged my heart and given me confidence for our future. We start seeing a new therapist on Friday.

Our adoption case worker hooked us up with some local resources. The therapist we'll be meeting with specializes in post-adoption behaviors in kids between the ages of 2-6. I'm really excited to meet with her and am hopeful that she will help us build security in LJ.

It was nice to reconnect with our adoption case worker; it had been several months since we've connected. She is such a blessing in such broken work. She says she has a few cases that she expects to move toward adoption in the next few months that would be a good fit for our family.

We didn't talk specifics. I know who holds our future.

Ben and I went on a date, last week, and talked about or goals and dreams for the year. It feels good to live in a place of perfect peace. If we spend the rest of our lives as a family of four we will be content and grateful. If we add 2 or 10 kids to the mix, we'll be, equally, as content and grateful.

I know we're not "done" because the corners of our hearts still feel the tug, but the peace makes the waiting easy.

We, actually, got a call a few days ago regarding one-year old twin boys. It was 20 minutes of high excitement and text messages back and forth (with limited information). When I texted Ben to tell him, his response was, "Wow! Okay, Let me know."

I, instantly, fell more in love with him. How many husbands would respond that way about expanding their family by two with only a few hours notice? He's a treasure.

The twins were just coming into care, but the agency called us because they were desperate for a family. Thankfully, there was another family that was able to take them. Working full time and living more than an hour from our agency makes fostering kids a no-go for us, right now.

It was the first phone call we've received to foster, so far. I thought it would be harder to say, "no", but when you know you're walking inside God's plan, the "nos" come with a measure of confidence.

Whether more lovies come to us this year or not, I'm looking forward to a new year of revelation from the Father and opportunities to make a difference in the lives of the three boys I have.