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This morning, I woke up to an incredible sunrise. Every shade of pink and orange filled the sky and my heart burst with thanksgiving to God. He filled my heart with such peace and I began to sing, Jeremy Camp's, Give Me Jesus:

In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise

Give me Jesus.
Give me Jesus,
Give me Jesus.
You can have all this world,
Just give me Jesus.

I hummed through my shower, getting the boys dressed, and breakfast.

I thought about Hosea's faithfulness to God during his tumultuous relationship with his harlot wife and God reminded me that he is not into trickery.

He asks for our hearts. And we've given them.

If we are chosen to parent Lya and Jamar, than it's part of God's plan for our family. If we're not, than God will honor our willingness and direct us, again. As I watched the sun rise, I was awed at the simplicity of it. What is there to be anxious about?

It was just one of those mornings where God shows his face, fills your spirit, and sends you on your way.

Around midday, I got a text from Ben:

We need to do this thing as best as possible...If we don't get picked then we know it's a "no"...otherwise we need to see this through.

I smiled. God wasn't just working in me, this morning, he was moving through Ben, too.

We haven't been talking about this sweet sibling set much because there are just more questions than we have answers and, truth be told, everything on the outside says to turn the other way...

An hour later, Ben sent another text. This time it was the lyrics from Jesus Culture:

Set a fire down in my soul,

That I can't contain, that I can't control,

I want more of you God -

I want more of you.

He followed it with, I can't sing that and then, blindly, turn my back on this.

I was moved to tears.

We may be one in heart, but Ben and I are not one in mind. We think, feel, and process life very differently. I start running as I say, yes, and Ben sits down to think about his no (you can imagine our home buying process and why it took us two years to find the right one).

We are different people with different drives, but God brought us together to raise one family with His purpose.

At bed time, LJ told me that he was going to teach his new brother how to wrestle. I told him how much his brother would love that and then reminded him that Jamar might be really sad and grumpy for awhile if he comes to live with us. LJ was thoughtful in his response, "Because he doesn't have a mom and dad?"

Yeah, buddy...

"But you're a mom...and daddy's a dad...and I'm a brother! We should adopt him, Mom!"

I agree.

God spent the day weaving through the hearts of my family. Whether for this sibling set or the next, we are ready for all that God has for us.

Now we just wait...