Thursday, January 6, 2011

I heart January


Being a mom never gets old.

We had the BEST Christmas. It was everything Christmas should be about. I'm not sure restful can describe any days that contain a lively toddler, but I so enjoyed our special time together! You can read more about Ty's excitement and gifts over at Thrifty Heart.  I want to talk, here, about peace that passes understanding.

There is something about the charged-start of a new year that fills me with fresh perspective and hope. I can only pray that the peace that cloaks my heart, now, lasts for months on end. I was pulled in many directions, last year, and at times the pressure was collapsing. After some time of renewal, I realize that so much of the trapping war-tug was tension that I built.

I'm a, wholly, passionate person almost to the point of consumption. I don't know how to do things at half speed and when God plants a promise, I'm not patient. I have such a difficult time not puppeteering my life and it makes me nutsy, sometimes, because I know the control I hunger for is anti-God. I sing Robinson's 1758 words with conviction, Bind my wandering heart to Thee.

God did such a cleansing in me, this January. It's one of my favorite times of year and I appreciate it so much more as I get older. Each new year brings deeper understanding; a brighter wisdom. I'm learning to leave the wrestling matches in the supernatural and that I don't have to live out every dream and passion, right this minute. God has spoken peace into my spirit and even though we're in the midst of some swirling circumstances, my feet are planted. For the first time in a long time, I'm resting in God's love. I'm not singing or talking or praying. I'm not trying to make this happen or that work. I'm just being.

I'm recognizing what my sinful nature is capable of and running all the more toward the Conqueror. Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, prone to leave the God I love. Here's my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above.
    
   
It's going to be a good year.

11 comments:

  1. Rebekah,
    Thanks for being so raw and honest. I appreciate the way you share your heart, especially in this post. I struggle with "being." It's something I decided I need to work on this year. After reading your post, I realize that "working on it" isn't the right idea, because that's not being.
    Thank you and Happy New Year

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  2. My favorite hymn ever--I love the David Crowder version. Best wishes for a very peaceful year.

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  3. I love January too. Beautiful family picture.

    xoxo!

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  4. Amazing. Thanks for reminding our hearts, too.

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  5. So happy to hear of the peace you have found...I think we all are searching for moments (weeks, months, years) of that ourselves. I will be wishing for you a whole year full of it:).

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  6. It is nice to hear from you and that you are in a better place then the last time we heard from you. The picture of the 3 of you is beautiful and Ty is so cute and my goodness has he grown. I am glad you had a good christmas and new year

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  7. Love this time of year too...Looking forward to great things ahead!!

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  8. Hey, R! Great photo. We are very much alike. I'm passionate (to the point of forgetting about God and doing my own thing sometimes), I'm dedicated, and I'm determined. These attributes can serve me well in life, but sometimes they bite me in the butt. :) Haha. Anyway, I know you are busy, but girl, you need to blog more often! Also, I posted some pics of my new baby on my blog (but never of her face for privacy) if you're interested. Happy 2011!

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  9. Rebekah! That is a beautiful picture! And I LOVE that song..You spoke exactly the sort of peace that I'm feeling at the start of this new year as well! It's soothing to know someone else can enjoy that peace along with me!

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  10. Girl, I'm right there with you. I was actually looking forward to January this year. I have the same struggles {as I am sure that many out there do}. You have such a gorgeous family. You are all such "pretty little thangs". :)

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