Day 37

Okay, new idea for the baby's room. I am now going to line the walls with adoption paperwork; a "clerical" motif if you will. I think I like it.

We had our second class tonight "Adoption Awareness." It's actually supposed to be the first class (before Trans-Racial Families) but I didn't want to wait a month to take them in order, so we did a little flip flop. Tonight's meeting was SO informative, answered all the questions I had, and gave us a really good idea of what the next several months of our lives are going to look like. It's hard to describe what I'm feeling. Excited, of course. Overwhelmed, not really. Surreal, definitely.

In the car, Ben said to me, "It just doesn't feel real. There are so many hoops and roadblocks, it doesn't seem like it will actually happen." I completely agree. Back to what I wrote a couple weeks ago, part of me is preparing for disappointment--it's all I've known in the "baby" department. Nonetheless, we're going to press forward, one step at a time. The only problem, for those that don't know me well, is that my mind (once made up) only has one function: turbo. I am the sort of student who gets assigned homework and immediately wants to go home and do all of it before I go to bed! I'm displaying serious restraint right now in not cracking open "THE" binder that holds all our paperwork and assignments. Before you think me a dedicated blogger, know that I am only issuing restraint because if I were to open the said binder right now I would spend the next 48 hours completing every step in the adoption process, without fail. While that may be uber-efficient, I am not currently able to sacrifice all sleep, food, and other social responsibilities--school, work, Ben, etc. I'll have to wait until the weekend when I can afford the extra indulgence.

Stay tuned, there's definitely lots of information to discuss and decisions we'll need to make in the very near future. Please continue to pray for all parties involved. There are several disheartening and scary pieces to the puzzle, but I'm going to let God handle those, while I gear up for that binder.