Day 146

How Sweet the Words

We're officially official! I mean we've been "official" since August 27th, but today I was able to officially read [with my own eyes] our home study! First of all, I can't believe how thorough it is. Holy cow! It goes way beyond social security numbers and blood types. If ever there was a legal document for my life, this is it! Sorry, friends, but no one will ever read this study...It pushes way beyond my level of public sharing [I know, hard to believe].

Anyway, how sweet the words, "Based on the facts presented in this home study it has been assessed that Benjamin and Rebekah are suitable and eligible for a domestic adoption They are a wonderful couple with a strong and stable marriage. They are assessed to have the makings of excellent parents..."

I didn't know how good it would feel to read those words until I read them. They assure me and excite me at the same time! I know it's just a document, but it confirms my heart and gives credence to my cry. It was really fun to read through other people's perception of us (case worker, references, doctors, employers, etc) but it was a little strange when I cam across this line--"There are no known conditions that would negatively affect Benjamin or Rebekah's ability to parent a child. Benjamin and Kimberly report no history of substance abuse..." ...uh...who's Kimberly?

Yup, that's right. CW swapped in Kimberly for Rebekah. And three people signed off on it. You'd think SOMEONE would have actually read through the entire report despite it's length and dryness. I'm not overly upset about it, because I know it's not going to affect the timing of a baby, but it is annoying that I have to call and ask for a new report. I've been checking the mail for it every day because I couldn't apply for adoption grants without it. Consequently, I'm back to waiting for a corrected report so I can proceed with my money-finding efforts!

In less annoying news....My sister had the most adorable invitations made for my shower. And I do mean ADORABLE! A family friend [Kristy] works in design and is starting to go public with her skills! First check out the invite (take notice of the sweet adoption poem in the corner):

[SIDE NOTE: Kristy came to my blog, saw our nursery theme and brought it to print. How cool is that? Her company is Posh Pixels Graphic Design. I think she's still in the process of getting a website together, but until then you can leave her some love in blog world.]

I am forever indebted to my beautiful friends for planning me a shower. It has been the perfect "in wait" remedy. From registering to calls of congratulation, I finally feel the realness of expecting.

I am going to bed tonight on a rush of adrenaline. I don't care how long it takes--as long as it's before Christmas [smile]--I know our baby is coming. The room is ready, the shower is planned, our hearts expanded. I feel like I'm walking an all time high, with the world's best secret...

I'm going to be a mom.