Sunday, December 27, 2009


Christmas Eve - Written December 24th, 2008:

Surely, you have forgotten me, Lord.

Do you remember the passion of my youth?

The infinite praise on my lips?
I shouted your name on earth and daily danced in your glory.
I have done all that you've asked me to do,
I've lived a life of surrender.

Not because you mandated, but because you loved.
You have given me breath to live and wings to fly.
Your faithfulness has been sung through generations,
Your hope has carried me through.

You are not a lowly god.
You are King of the universe, Master of the sea -
My friend, my lover, my guide.
You know my heart and whisper me peace.
My head can't help but bow in your presence.

Have you forgotten me, Lord?
How much more must I endure?
Do you truly have a plan?

I know your power and speak of your strength.
Why then, O Lord, have you withheld this miracle from me?

Are you going to answer?
You'll have to be loud.
I cannot hear over the crying in my heart.

Please answer.

Lord, I need an answer.
I need you.

I cannot go on.
Long has been this race.
Your power has escaped me;
The song in my heart gone.

And I feel no hope.

Christmas 2009

There aren't words big enough. My heart is full - joy and hope have returned.


  1. Oh I love his little sweater shirt. Its so neat when you do these reflection posts. Its crazy how God has brought you from total dispair to total joy. God is so good!!!


  2. Simply beautiful.

    And I love Ty's outfit - how stylish!

  3. It looks like you had a fabulous Christmas with your little man! Cute pictures! I love his holiday "do"!

  4. I needed to read this post today. It was an unusually difficult holiday for me and my husband. Your posts give me much hope!

    I am glad you had a good Christmas. Ty is beautiful and I can see in your face--the joy he brings you!

  5. Isn't it A M A Z I N G ? We share your joys this holiday season! :-)

  6. He is precious and yes your joy looks complete! What a difference a year makes.

  7. Your story is amazing!! When things like happen it shows us that God does hear us, he just answers us in his own time. Thank you SO much for sharing Tyrus with us!!
    Renia (Michigan)

  8. What a wonderful testimony you have! I wish you and your sweet family many more blessings in 2010.

  9. Looks like you had an amazing Christmas with your family. . . :-D

  10. I remember all too well that same feeling of despair, the questioning, the heartbreak. . .

    Three days ago I watched my now 10 year-old twins attack the gifts under the Christmas tree and was brought back to those four years of infertility when I, too, wondered if we would ever see our dreams realized and be blessed with children. As amazing as it is to be on the other side, you somehow never forget what it feels like to yearn so painfully for a child on whom to shower gifts on Christmas morning.

    The joy you feel now that Ty is in your arms is evident in your smile and in your eyes. You and Ben have been so, so blessed (as has the "other" Rebekah). You were all meant to become a part of one another's lives, and it is clear that God has worked a miracle in bringing Ty to you.

    Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of you!

  11. What a BIG difference such a little man can make!

  12. What did the little man get?! I know that isn't the point of Christmas but I love hearing what the littles one get!!!

  13. Adorable. You guys look WONDERFUL! As always...

  14. Awwww Ty is so adorable, what a cute little man he is with his itty bitty jeans on !!!! PS sidenote but I love your new pretty!!!! Do you have lowlights in there as well??? Pretty color!

  15. Thank you, again. I re-read your posts from right before Ty was born - the wait is torturous for me!! I am so grateful for your journey record - it helps so much to know those who have gone before and survived and thrived.

    I love the pics - you and your family are so beautiful! I hope your 2010 is even more blessed!

  16. Love the picts...You both look GREAT...I got te vest that you are wearing for it.

  17. Ty is adorable...much love to you upon this wonderful new year. I can only hope that our 2010 is as blessed as your 2009.

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  20. I'm so glad you had a wonderful Christmas with Ty! Love the pictures :)